TITAN is my nickname. In Greek mythology, Titans were a race of powerful deities, descendants of Gaia and Uranus, that ruled during the legendary Golden Age. I am not so Titanic, though I believe some similarities have been percolated down the line......(LOL!!!) and it is my system... so I named it TITAN TANTRA...
Wednesday 30 June 2010
Wednesday 16 June 2010
It was she...Part-II
It was almost 11 o’clock and I was waiting at a corner desk in the science library. Generally I got hell loads of work these times, including lemon-tea break at college ground, chatting at canteen with friends from other departments, cracking silly non-veg jokes…..“But today!!! What am I doing?” Sitting in the most boring place I have ever visited with two gigantic books I never read (though those were in my syllabus), I was sweating heavily. Whether the fan was slow or something cooking within me, devoid of the truth I was praying that “be everything goes well”. The librarian, Mrs. Jyotsna, a super slim lady with ultra powered glasses was staring at me as if I was a just-dropped ALIEN from a far fetched planet trying to understand what these two idiotic books mean to ALIENKIND!!! As long as possible I was trying to ignore all odds around me and concentrate. It took another ten minutes when she arrived like a jet-lagged passenger, carrying five heavy books. And what an expression……..
“Oh!! You are already here? I thought you had a class…I mean I saw your friends were going for the maths lecture.”
“I didn’t go. I don’t like sitting idle in that boring class.”
“Still you should attend.”
“I have maths tuition and please I am not here to attend your lecture also. “Shit…what am I saying!!!”
“Fine……. Do whatever you like. But I thought you have something to say, would you please?”
Again that crumpling feeling started growing within my stomach, something heavy in my throat. What all I did, just yawned, and that too because I was getting very bored sitting at the library. But she got it wrong. Instantly her face turned pinkish and raising her glasses with trembling fingers she told me “Look Soham, I was not the one following you for last seven days (I was not following, it was just an accident!!!), I am not the one sitting at canteen in the opposite bench and ogling at you (WTF!!! I was just trying to catch a glimpse of Ananya, heartthrob of college, not you madam…….). So now you have to tell me what for you are doing all these? Is there anything special or you do it with each and every girl in the college?” I have already answered her questions silently when she was accusing me but couldn’t tell her.
All I could say was “I like you.”
“That I already know. But what kinda likeliness is this? Are you crazy enough to just hold this feeling within you or have you thought anything else?”
“Yes, I thought.” I found my words back. “I like you and I am quite serious about it.” Oh… I am amazed with my oration and felt like I could address the nation……….
“Good, but you should act like that. Not like silly Roadside Romeos, catching the same train which I commute.” She started smiling.
“Then… what should I do?”
“Do what is proper.”
“Okay, Miss Chatterjee……. I love you, would you be mine?” I gestured like I would kneel if it was not in the library.
“Okay, Mr. Mukherjee……. I can understand.” She mocked me. “And you know what, even I started liking you.” She burst with laughter as I joined her.
Instantly Mrs. Jyotsna jumped into our desk and shouted her favorite punch line “GET OUT……………”
“Oh!! You are already here? I thought you had a class…I mean I saw your friends were going for the maths lecture.”
“I didn’t go. I don’t like sitting idle in that boring class.”
“Still you should attend.”
“I have maths tuition and please I am not here to attend your lecture also. “Shit…what am I saying!!!”
“Fine……. Do whatever you like. But I thought you have something to say, would you please?”
Again that crumpling feeling started growing within my stomach, something heavy in my throat. What all I did, just yawned, and that too because I was getting very bored sitting at the library. But she got it wrong. Instantly her face turned pinkish and raising her glasses with trembling fingers she told me “Look Soham, I was not the one following you for last seven days (I was not following, it was just an accident!!!), I am not the one sitting at canteen in the opposite bench and ogling at you (WTF!!! I was just trying to catch a glimpse of Ananya, heartthrob of college, not you madam…….). So now you have to tell me what for you are doing all these? Is there anything special or you do it with each and every girl in the college?” I have already answered her questions silently when she was accusing me but couldn’t tell her.
All I could say was “I like you.”
“That I already know. But what kinda likeliness is this? Are you crazy enough to just hold this feeling within you or have you thought anything else?”
“Yes, I thought.” I found my words back. “I like you and I am quite serious about it.” Oh… I am amazed with my oration and felt like I could address the nation……….
“Good, but you should act like that. Not like silly Roadside Romeos, catching the same train which I commute.” She started smiling.
“Then… what should I do?”
“Do what is proper.”
“Okay, Miss Chatterjee……. I love you, would you be mine?” I gestured like I would kneel if it was not in the library.
“Okay, Mr. Mukherjee……. I can understand.” She mocked me. “And you know what, even I started liking you.” She burst with laughter as I joined her.
Instantly Mrs. Jyotsna jumped into our desk and shouted her favorite punch line “GET OUT……………”
Tuesday 1 June 2010
It was she...Part-I
Why the train is being so late today?? It is not done, after all it's Metro yaar!! Our pride, our city's unique thing...but who's listening!! It came at least 3 minutes late. And with an unknown feeling that I cannot describe now, I boarded the train. My eyes were searching someone. But my gesture was not correct, not at all to be done in public.. so few disturbed eyes tried to kill me with their tough looks!!! Huh...I was a college goer..."who cares" was the attitude used to be the dominating factor those days... So I continued to find out "someone". And you know something..if you try hard you are destined to be successful.
Yes, she was there...in a cotton salwar kameez I hated most,but it was its turn that day. She spotted me long back when I boarded the train but was trying to hide herself. And I found it.......instantly I was so angry that I couldn't express. It was like "kata poltu" harassing the first girl of local school!! But I couldn't do anything without giving her a "tough look"...
She was accompanied by her idiot friend who was shamelessly talking anything and everything so much aloud within the train. I thought "WTF"!!! She was ashamed of me because of looking at her, but not at all bothered what her friend was doing.....after all it is Metro, not a "south bound local train"...
I was so much amazed with my thoughts that when "Central" station came and when they got down from the other gate, didn't realize. It was a passenger behind me who literally pushed me and angrily told me "why are you standing in front of the gate if you don't have to get down here?"
If it was any other day, I would have answered him with similar fashion he talked to me, but not that day. I expressed my sorrow and ran after her. And what a coincidence!! Her friend was not her around, with heartbeat at its extreme, I started walking side be her........
She noticed me, but didn't say a word. Now a strange feeling started filling me. "Why she is being so ignorant!! She doesn't like me or what." But how can it be?? She talked to me so nicely just a day back!! I was confused like anything. Felt like run away, but I couldn't. Stopped at a stall near college gate to buy chewing gums. Staring at me she entered the Main gate.
At that point I realized what I had thought was nothing but just a casual "adda" and with a slight pain within left side of my chest and a fullness near my throat I crossed the gate. Often I used to go to canteen first whenever I felt "not okay", and it was a similar day. So turn right and what a amazement!!!
She was standing in front of me with a kinky smile.
"Why were you following me?"
"I...I...no...not at all........I was just coming...means...nothing at all..what are you saying!!!" What better dialogue I could write!!
"No?? You were not following me?"
"See...the point is..."......I collected words...."I catch the 9:30 Metro and as we chatted yesterday, thought you will be coming in the same...so was looking for you.....If you tag it 'following you', I cannot help it".....
"So, you don't like me?"
"When did I say that?"
"Answer me, I asked the question first"
"Yeah...I mean, Yes, I like you"
"So, what's the problem?"
"About what?"
"Forget it!!!"
What should I do now?? Should I kneel and propose her? Or should I take time?
"Okay, meet me after the first period at library. Bye for now..." She left instantly as she had her department in the main building. I had to walk long to reach mine. It was so sudden and so much unexpected, that it took at least five minutes to settle. With full of joy I went to canteen..."Pramod da!! One tea here..." Won't attend the first period today..after all it's the same Physics Pass class. What's the point going to the class among all boring girls of chemistry and mathematics department!! Today is different, will spend this hour with those who don't attend a single class but attend canteen routinely. Will take a lesson from them on what they did masters already and what I need badly...
Yes, she was there...in a cotton salwar kameez I hated most,but it was its turn that day. She spotted me long back when I boarded the train but was trying to hide herself. And I found it.......instantly I was so angry that I couldn't express. It was like "kata poltu" harassing the first girl of local school!! But I couldn't do anything without giving her a "tough look"...
She was accompanied by her idiot friend who was shamelessly talking anything and everything so much aloud within the train. I thought "WTF"!!! She was ashamed of me because of looking at her, but not at all bothered what her friend was doing.....after all it is Metro, not a "south bound local train"...
I was so much amazed with my thoughts that when "Central" station came and when they got down from the other gate, didn't realize. It was a passenger behind me who literally pushed me and angrily told me "why are you standing in front of the gate if you don't have to get down here?"
If it was any other day, I would have answered him with similar fashion he talked to me, but not that day. I expressed my sorrow and ran after her. And what a coincidence!! Her friend was not her around, with heartbeat at its extreme, I started walking side be her........
She noticed me, but didn't say a word. Now a strange feeling started filling me. "Why she is being so ignorant!! She doesn't like me or what." But how can it be?? She talked to me so nicely just a day back!! I was confused like anything. Felt like run away, but I couldn't. Stopped at a stall near college gate to buy chewing gums. Staring at me she entered the Main gate.
At that point I realized what I had thought was nothing but just a casual "adda" and with a slight pain within left side of my chest and a fullness near my throat I crossed the gate. Often I used to go to canteen first whenever I felt "not okay", and it was a similar day. So turn right and what a amazement!!!
She was standing in front of me with a kinky smile.
"Why were you following me?"
"I...I...no...not at all........I was just coming...means...nothing at all..what are you saying!!!" What better dialogue I could write!!
"No?? You were not following me?"
"See...the point is..."......I collected words...."I catch the 9:30 Metro and as we chatted yesterday, thought you will be coming in the same...so was looking for you.....If you tag it 'following you', I cannot help it".....
"So, you don't like me?"
"When did I say that?"
"Answer me, I asked the question first"
"Yeah...I mean, Yes, I like you"
"So, what's the problem?"
"About what?"
"Forget it!!!"
What should I do now?? Should I kneel and propose her? Or should I take time?
"Okay, meet me after the first period at library. Bye for now..." She left instantly as she had her department in the main building. I had to walk long to reach mine. It was so sudden and so much unexpected, that it took at least five minutes to settle. With full of joy I went to canteen..."Pramod da!! One tea here..." Won't attend the first period today..after all it's the same Physics Pass class. What's the point going to the class among all boring girls of chemistry and mathematics department!! Today is different, will spend this hour with those who don't attend a single class but attend canteen routinely. Will take a lesson from them on what they did masters already and what I need badly...
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